Life Lately, August 2016

It's been forever since I last posted here. I never really lived up to my promise of keeping this up. LOL. Anyway, a lot has happened since the last time I've ever written on this blog. And I feel like this is a turning point for me.

We've moved back to my grandma's place and more or less, things are still the same at home. But it's nice to know that my parents are fighting less, and loving more. Things are looking up a bit with my dad, especially. All his efforts at his work and sidelines are paying off little by little.

I've passed the said-to-be "hardest" semester of my four-year program that I thought I'd flunk. Really. I could not have gotten through the previous sem if it weren't for my very supportive friends. They've helped me a lot while my (not anymore) boyfriend was gone.

Things have been looking up in my two organizations. I did not get to be the Asst. Art Dir. for our college's publication, but I did get to be an Acting Art Dir.! It was so unexpected, but I'm more than grateful for it. My second organization has given me great opportunities as well and I could not be more excited for this coming Academic Year!

Lastly, my (not anymore) boyfriend broke up with me after disappearing for more than 3 months. We still talk, but just as friends. He needed time for himself, and I guess I need time to find myself, too. To be honest, I think it's better that I stay single for a while.

Here's to more growing up's and adulting!

The Sunday Currently No. 9

No Senti Saturdays yesterday because I'm saving it for next Saturday. It'll be worth the wait, I swear!


R E A D I N G  Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk.
W R I T I N G  a documentary review for my sister's homework. Ugh. Ate duties. 
C L I C K I N G documentary reviews because I've limited knowledge on documentary making and how I should evaluate it.
L I S T E N I N G  Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley. Yes. I also like torturing myself. 
T H I N K I N G  about that old friend who's giving me the creeps. Have to stop. It has to stop.
S M E L L I N G this lavender-scented air freshener our neighbor got us.
W I S H I N G I was more of an optimist.
H O P I N G to be able to hang-out with my Arayat friends this week!
W E A R I N G my nightgown. Can't believe my godmother got me this for Christmas lol
L O V I N G this time of the day when I'm the only one up.
W A N T I N G go out with my High School friends. KTV with my favorite people isn't much to ask for, right? :<
N E E D I N G  to finish my reading for Lit tomorrow and to make a journal entry. Procrastination Queen's at it again!
F E E L I N G confused. I've never been this confused in such a long time that I think confused has already become a default feeling.

I just want to thank those people who have the time (and patience) to read my blog (because, really, I suck at this blogging thing). This is just an outlet, actually, and for me to practice my writing.

Have a great week! Cheerios. :)

Thursday Tunes No. 3: With Love, Alisha

I recently discovered this playlist in my old mp3 player yesterday while I traveled to Pampanga. This playlist brings back so much memories during my pre-teen years! Nothing but a little R&B to set the mood during the long car rides.

Have a great week, you guys!

The Sunday Currently No. 8


R E A D I N G  an article for our Technical Writing class.
W R I T I N G  nonsense thoughts on my journal.
L I S T E N I N G  the white noise of the air-con
T H I N K I N G  if we should see Inside Out on Wednesday or not.
S M E L L I N G nothing because of my clogged nose.
W I S H I N G this week would turn out okay.
H O P I N G to be able to hang-out with my Arayat friends this week!
W E A R I N G my The Wonder Years shirt and a pair of shorts.
L O V I N G most of our professors so far. *u*
W A N T I N G go for an adventure!!!
N E E D I N G  to finish my journal entry for Lit.
F E E L I N G a tad bit disoriented.
C L I C K I N G through YouTube for some MCR, Greenday, and FOB. <3

Another Sunday, another new week to fill in with memories. How's your Sunday? :)

Senti Saturdays Vol. 2: I Miss You, Mom.


I asked “what’s this on your finger?”
as I gently grabbed your hand.
It was actually an excuse
for our fingers to touch again.
Nostalgia. Bliss. All at once.
I was 5 again
running along Manila Zoo.
You grabbed hold of my tiny
hand; told me stay near you.
Side by side we toured the zoo.
Your hand in mine,
mine in yours.
By night you tucked me in bed,
hummed me my favourite lullaby
and kissed me goodnight.
We were at peace.
By morning you’d fix my hair
and tell me I’m pretty
because I got your big eyes.
You’d wait for me even if
I always end up being the last
to come out because I write
too slow.
Side by side we walk to the car
as I tell you the crazy things I did.
Delighted, you brush my cheek
and help me up the car.
We were at peace.
How long has it been
since we’ve exchanged ‘I love you’s?
How long has it been
since our bodies pressed?
How long has it been
since you’ve held my hand?
How long has it been
since we’ve compromised?
How long has it been
since we were at peace?

I wrote this poem during my freshman year in High School. It was a school day and everything was going downhill. I longed for my mother's comfort. However, I could not even take a step to her orbit. Her invisible walls were too strong to destroy, and too high to climb. Since then, I only found comfort in the company of my friends. I can't deny the fact that I still miss her. We may be living under one roof, but the walls are still there. Sometimes her gates would open, but it wouldn't be so long before it closes. Her love, for me, is best felt in the form of silence - when there are no scoldings, no reprimands, no debating, no release of negative energy.

But I'm still hoping for that day she would open her gates, and let me in; for that day she would take down her walls, and reunite again; still hoping that one day, she would come back for me, for us.

Thursday Tunes No. 2

For consistency's sake, I've decided to give a name for my playlist posts - Thursday Tunes. I used to dislike Thursdays since I was a kid because: 1) I've been to 6 different schools and I always get assigned to be a Thursday cleaner, whereas, I do most of the cleaning while my groupmates just hang around, and 2) it's always a bad day. Thursdays, for me, give out negative energy, so I gotta find ways to counter it. My grandmother recommended that I listen to upbeat music to brighten my mood so I wouldn't even feel like it's a bad day. I've been taking this advice since my junior year in High School, and from then on, Thursdays didn't feel so bad anymore!

Here are some of the songs I listen to:
 (In no particular order)

And, yes, I will definitely update this playlist in the future. Hope your week's doing fine.


The Sunday Currently No. 7

My last Sunday before school starts. Two months went by so fast. I wasn't even able to fulfill my last minute getaway. Oh, well. At least I made plans with friends this week. I can't wait!


R E A D I N G  Finding Audrey by Sophie Kinsella. My first ever Kinsella read. I'm not kidding. I was never into Chick Lit, but I needed a break from reading Murakami (No offense. I still love you). I'm on 4th chapter. So far so good!
W R I T I N G  an article about relationships, and this blog post.
L I S T E N I N G  to Life is Strange's soundtrack. This interactive graphic adventure game is phenomenal not only for its theme, but also for its soundtrack, aesthetics, and plot.
T H I N K I N G  of how how I could keep this conversation (relationship) last.
S M E L L I N G the scent of my shampoo. Just got out the shower.
W I S H I N G - for quality professors this semester.
H O P I N G - for a good day tomorrow, or better yet, a good week!
W E A R I N G - my polka-dot jammies and shirt (they're not even matching huhu)
L O V I N G - my dyed hair. My freshman do!
W A N T I N G - to go shopping for school supplies later. Sadly the sky does not permit to.
N E E D I N G  to get a preview of the courses we're taking this semester.
F E E L I N G - sleepy.
C L I C K I N G - tumblr