New Year Post!

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While people get all giddy and excited whenever new year comes, I feel nothing special. To me, it's just another ordinary day - a continuation of the day before, which is last year. The "New Year, New Me", and New Year's Resolutions do not apply to me anymore. Why use a holiday as an excuse to get off your ass and start working? Besides, every day is a new day, a new chance to make things better. Because most of the time, promises made or items on your resolutions wish would just last for weeks or months - they'd be left out on one corner: dusty, unfinished, waiting for another year to end until they are made promises again. So for me it's best not to plan for the long run (for the whole year), but put action to it as immediate as possible. Grab chances and never let them go. Let spontaneity lead you throughout this year. I swear, it will all be worth it. ;)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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The Sunday Currently (Wednesday Version) No. 4

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I'm about to complete the days of the week. Lol. It's hard not to procrastinate when you're on a break, yeah? At least, I get to update. ;)



C U R R E N T L Y:
R E A D I N G an entry from RED: The Waterstones Anthology. I was actually looking for manga, but then this beauty appeared as I was diving into a pile of books. 
W R I T I N G this blog entry and my (sort-of) new year's resolution.
L I S T E N I N G to the gush of wind making the leaves dance, birds chirping, the tapping on my keyboard and the ticking of my clock.
T H I N K I N G about the consequences from the things I've been doing this past week and how I'm going to face them. *deep sigh*
S M E L L I N G nothing because of my cold. Huhu.
W I S H I N G I would come into my senses and get myself together.
H O P I N G  for a good change in 2015.
W E A R I N G my Arts and Letters shirt and my fave polka-dotted shorts.
L O V I  N G the peacefulness of this moment.
W A N T I N G to eat a lot, yet I don't have the appetite to.
N E E D I N G to clean my room, fix my clothes and memorize our new piece for the rehearsals.
F E E L I N G contented now that me and my boyfriend are okay now. Couldn't wait to see him on Monday.
C L I C K I N G through tumblr for grotesque ideas.

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Letters. Letters. Letters.

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  1. Look, if you want this relationship to work, at least just listen to me and not blabber about your stupid innuendos on people especially your relationship/s. The next time you end up getting cheated on again, don't expect me to be there because I am so done putting up with you.
  2. "I don't have friends." WOW. JUST WOW. Can I get some hands over here? Little Miss Attention-Seeker is throwing another pity-party and wants everyone over. SHUT THE FUCK UP. You are not blind and you should be aware that there are people who care about you.
  3. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. Please come back. We still have boxes to check on our bucket-list, places to visit, beaches to go to, and so much more. I love you so much and I just could not bear the thought of your absence.
  4. You left me...again. Ha ha ha. I would still want this relationship, but you shut me out for the nth time. Thank you, anyway. It's been a great 6 years...at least for me. But if you're ready to come back, I'm just here. I'll always be here.
  5. Over-analyzing. Over-analyzing. Over-analyzing. I'm freaking out about these ridiculous made up scenarios my mind produces. You haven't even called or messaged me the whole day. Don't you love me anymore? Are you tired of me? Am I not enough? Is there somebody else again? I am so sorry. I am that clingy. I love you so much that I want you all to myself. I don't like you talking to girls, but I can't stop you from making friends. I am so scared to lose you because I almost did. The experience made me become this overly-attached, selfish, eerie girlfriend. I hate myself for being like this. Even I would leave myself if I were you. But, please stay? Don't leave me. I have lost a great number of people in my life. I couldn't bear losing another. Well, you're not just another. You're one of the most important persons in my life. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. No amount of words would ever be enough to describe how much to mean to me. This ain't just some cheesy shit. I'm serious. So, please stay.

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6 PM...

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Another episode of what I know and what I feel, clashing, contradicting. Just when positive thoughts resurface, fear and pessimism come barging in. As the battle usually ends, the latter are hailed victors. Cynical, irrational thoughts take over leaving broken pieces and tears. Nevertheless, the other party shan't raise the white flag. There will come a day where they will take place on the throne. By then, eternal peace and happiness will pervade. Just hold on and fight with me 'til we reach our happily ever after.

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The Sunday Currently (Tuesday Version) No. 3

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I forgot to post an entry last Sunday, so since it's a Tuesday, here's my "The Tuesday Currently".



R E A D I N G The Memory Keeper's Daughter. I bought this pre-loved book from a friend 3 months ago. I have a thing for stories that include characters having mental disabilities because they are just so heart-melting.
W R I T I N G bite-sized thoughts.
L I S T E N I N G to my Vintage Christmas Playlist. Christmas vibes are totally kicking in!
T H I N K I N G about how to readjust myself. ((Identity crisis S.O.S.)) 
S M E L L I N G the watered plants. Hmmm.
W I S H I N G for an extended Christmas Break. I know, UST's got the longest break, but I am not ready for school yet. :(
H O P I N G  for my cousin, Lindsay, to be home on Christmas Eve.
W E A R I N G pajamas because I'm too lazy to go to shower.
L O V I  N G the cool breeze here in Pampanga.
W A N T I N G to read as much books as I can, yet my motivation's in Antarctica. 
N E E D I N G to bathe my dog and myself.
F E E L I N G so confused with myself and my relationships.
C L I C K I N G through some blogs. And no, it's not stalking.

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The Sunday Currently No. 2

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I've been feeling down the past week, and I don't think I have the heart to blog about it right now. Anyway, here's my weekly blog link-up.

READING It's Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini. At times like this, I re-read about Craig Gilner's experiences to cheer me up a bit. I just love how we could relate to a lot (minus his condition).
WEARING my CAT Officer shirt and a pair of boxers.
WRITING important things to do.
LISTENING to Hate to See Your Heart Break by Paramore.
THINKING about my parents, my grandma, how to face chorale tomorrow, and how I could explain things to one friend.
SMELLING Dad's cooking. Hmmm~ I'm guessing it's fish.
WISHING everything will fall into place.
LOVING how my boyfriend could instantly make me feel better -  how his kisses are like anchors that drown me away from all the complications of my life.
WANTING to get over with chorale and enrollment.
NEEDING some sleep and maybe my boyfriend back here in the Philippines.
FEELING confused. I'm in between oblivion and sadness.

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Happy Sunday!

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The Happy List No. 1

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Discovered another blog link-up. I think I might be getting a little obsessed with this blog link-up thing. Hihi. (^u^)  Knowing things to be happy about is a good starter for the new day. It shakes off all what's left of the negative vibes from the day before. So here's my Happy List!:



  • The damp, gloomy weather. While gray skies make some people down, it's the opposite for me.
  • We just had our first anniversary! I'm looking forward to celebrate it with him on Thursday.
  • Coffee and philosophical conversations with Dad.
  • Reunited with my High School friends (a.k.a. BOSS Family).
  • My grades reflected how I did better than last sem.
  • New friends from Chorale.
  • Knowing God's got me.

Join the blog link-up here.
Spread the happiness and enjoy the little things!
Special thanks to the lovely Ate Camie. <3

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The Sunday Currently No. 1

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I have finally come into my senses to blog again. *queue confetti* Anyway, I just found out about this blog link-up from my new favorite blogger. Oh gosh, she is ah-may-zing. I've been back-reading her blog since yesterday and her posts got my lazy bones worked up a bit. More on that on my next blog post.

I have this love/hate thing with Sundays since 1) it's followed by Monday, the worst day of the week; 2) I get to have time with my family. *u*


CURRENTLY

  • READING Lemony Snicket's The Reptile Room (A Series of Unfortunate Events #2). Though the movie adaptation gave me the creeps and a week's worth of nightmares back in 2005, I think I could handle reading the series now that it's 2014. Also, for the purpose of filling the gaps, for the things I missed as a child.
  • WRITING this blog post and some lyrics.
  • LISTENING to Scar Tissue by Red Hot Chili Peppers from my Chill Sunday Vibes Playlist.
  • THINKING about Paskuhan, the anniversary surprise for my boyfriend, how to approach that "friend" of mine the next time we meet, and assumptions as to what my parents' sermon is about.
  • SMELLING the clean sheets because it's so damn good.
  • WISHING my pimple marks would go away and for the progression of my height.
  • LOVING not having to do anything. Cheers to the combined Sem and Christmas Break!
  • WANTING that spareribs meal from Street Bites! I should have had the same order from last Thursday...
  • NEEDING to memorize my parts for the gig at St. Luke's BGC on Tuesday
  • FEELING sad and uncomfortable...still. I need to fix myself but I don't know where to start.

I guess that's that. Happy Weekend!
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May 3

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Date with daddy!!! Well, it's not actually a date. Just some sort of quality time alone with my dad. He had to run a few errands first before going north. We headed to SM north annex first to get some stuff and also looked around some places. We even encountered this guy who unexpectedly asked us a few questions about our experience in Jollibee while having our lunch. Dad wasn't giving specific answers, well, I guess it's a broader way of saying 'Don't talk to strangers'. Anyway, our walks were filled with random thoughts and stories of the past.
The trip was a bliss. It's been a while since I've traveled the north in the car with only my dad. However, I regret not having downloaded songs he's familiar with (I got too punk rock, I guess). Anyway, I still tried to blurt out any appropriate thing I could tell him to keep the conversation going.
As we got nearer to Tarlac, there was this familiar feeling of home; I have never felt this in years! Well, I suppose Tarlac will forever remain as my home. It's where I had my gradeschool days - where most of the highlights of my childhood took place.
Upon entering Luisita, Dad taught me the basics of driving and drove a little too. It was almost deserted; only a car or two would drive by every 10 minutes so why not seize the moment? I don't want to elaborate on my driving experience, but to sum it all up, it was fun and worthwhile. Huray for another check on my bucketlist!


Our stay in Tarlac was mostly uneventful. The plans with friends were cancelled due to unexpected happenings or change of schedules. Although, we did come to visit my dad's friend and got to take a glance at my elementary school.

Gosh, it does bring back the memories and nostalgic feels.

Before heading to Pampanga, we stopped by McDonald's for an afternoon snack and then went back to the road. 
Yo, dad!

The trip to Pampanga was a bit annoying because of the traffic and the inorganized people who officiates it; the road was being fixed. But, anyway I still got to see the beauty of mother nature.

I love looking at plains; it's breathtaking to see God's beautiful creation - so calm, so tranquil. There aren't wires, buildings and busy streets, but only mother nature.

I pray for more roadtrips like this, especially with great company. I guess it's a great start for this new month.

What's yours? :)

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